The Lonely Songs of Laren Dorr - George R. R. Martin, ebook, CALIBRE SFF 1970s, Temp 2
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THE LONELY SONGS OF
LAREN DORR
George R.R. Martin
A DF Books NERDs Release
There is a girl who goes between the worlds.
She is grey-eyed and pale of skin, or so the story goes, and her hair is a coal-black waterfall with
half-seen hints of red. She wears about her brow a circlet of burnished metal, a dark crown that holds
her hair in place and sometimes puts shadows in her eyes. Her name is Sharra; she knows the gates.
The beginning of her story is lost to us, with the memory of the world from which she sprang. The end?
The end is not yet, and when it comes we shall not know it.
We have only the middle, or rather a piece of that middle, the smallest part of the legend, a mere
fragment of the quest. A small tale within the greater, of one world where Sharra paused, and of the
lonely singer Laren Dorr and how they briefly touched.
* * * *
One moment there was only the valley, caught in twilight. The setting sun hung fat and violet on the ridge
above, and its rays slanted down silently into a dense forest whose trees had shiny black trunks and
colorless ghostly leaves. The only sounds were the cries of the mourning-birds coming out for the night,
and the swift rush of water in the rocky stream that cut the woods.
Then, through a gate unseen, Sharra came tired and bloodied to the world of Laren Dorr. She wore a
plain white dress, now stained and sweaty, and a heavy fur cloak that had been half-ripped from her
back. And her left arm, bare and slender, still bled from three long wounds. She appeared by the side of
the stream, shaking, and she threw a quick, wary glance about her before she knelt to dress her wounds.
The water, for all its swiftness, was a dark and murky green. No way to tell if it was safe, but Sharra was
weak and thirsty. She drank, washed her arm as best she could in the strange and doubtful water, and
bound her injuries with bandages ripped from her clothes. Then, as the purple sun dipped lower behind
the ridge, she crawled away from the water to a sheltered spot among the trees, and fell into exhausted
sleep.
She woke to arms around her, strong arms that lifted her easily to carry her somewhere, and she woke
struggling. But the arms just tightened, and held her still. “Easy,†a mellow voice said, and she saw
a face dimly through gathering mist, a man's face, long and somehow gentle. “You are weak,†he
said, “and night is coming. We must be inside before darkness."
Sharra did not struggle, not then, though she knew she should. She had been struggling a long time, and
she was tired. But she looked at him, confused. “Why?†she asked. Then, not waiting for an
answer, “Who are you? Where are we going?"
"To safety,†he said.
"Your home?†she asked, drowsy.
"No,†he said, so soft she could scarcely hear his voice. “No, not home, not ever home. But it will
do.†She heard splashing then, as if he were carrying her across the stream, and ahead of them on the
ridge she glimpsed a gaunt, twisted silhouette, a triple-towered castle etched black against the sun. Odd,
she thought, that wasn't there before.
She slept.
* * * *
When she woke, he was there, watching her. She lay under a pile of soft, warm blankets in a curtained,
canopied bed. But the curtains had been drawn back, and her host sat across the room in a great chair
draped by shadows. Candlelight flickered in his eyes, and his hands locked together neatly beneath his
chin. “Are you feeling better?†he asked, without moving.
She sat up, and noticed she was nude. Swift as suspicion, quicker than thought, her hand went to her
head. But the dark crown was still there, in place, untouched, its metal cool against her brow. Relaxing,
she leaned back against the pillows and pulled the blankets up to cover herself. “Much better,†she
said, and as she said it she realized for the first time that her wounds were gone.
The man smiled at her, a sad wistful sort of smile. He had a strong face, with charcoal-colored hair that
curled in lazy ringlets and fell down into dark eyes somehow wider than they should be. Even seated, he
was tall. And slender. He wore a suit and cape of some soft grey leather, and over that he wore
melancholy like a cloak. “Claw marks,†he said speculatively, while he smiled. “Claw marks
down your arm, and your clothes almost ripped from your back. Someone doesn't like you."
"Something,†Sharra said. “A guardian, a guardian at the gate.†She sighed. “There is
always a guardian at the gate. The Seven don't like us to move from world to world. Me they like least of
all."
His hands unfolded from beneath his chin, and rested on the carved wooden arms of his chair. He
nodded, but the wistful smile stayed. “So, then,†he said. “You know the Seven, and you know
the gates.†His eyes strayed to her forehead. “The crown, of course. I should have guessed."
Sharra grinned at him. “You did guess. More than that, you knew. Who are you? What world is this?"
"My world,†he said evenly. “I've named it a thousand times, but none of the names ever seem
quite right. There was one once, a name I liked, a name that fit. But I've forgotten it. It was a long time
ago.
My
name is Laren Dorr, or that was my name, once, when I had use for such a thing. Here and now
it seemed somewhat silly. But at least I haven't forgotten
it
."
"Your world,†Sharra said. “Are you a king, then? A god?"
"Yes,†Laren Dorr replied, with an easy laugh. “And more. I'm whatever I choose to be. There is
no one around to dispute me."
"What did you do to my wounds?†she asked.
"I healed them.†He gave an apologetic shrug. “It's my world. I have certain powers. Not the
powers I'd like to have, perhaps, but powers nonetheless."
"Oh.†She did not look convinced.
Laren waved an impatient hand. “You think it's impossible. Your crown, of course. Well, that's only
half right. I could not harm you with my ah, powers, not while you wear that. But I can help you.†He
smiled again, and his eyes grew soft and dreamy. “But it doesn't matter. Even if I could I would never
harm you, Sharra. Believe that. It has been a long time."
Sharra looked startled. “You know my name. How?†He stood up, smiling, and came across the
room to sit beside her on the bed. And he took her hand before replying, wrapping it softly in his and
stroking her with his thumb. “Yes, I know your name. You are Sharra, who moves between the
worlds. Centuries ago, when the hills had a different shape and the violet sun burned scarlet at the very
beginning of its cycle, they came to me and told me you would come. I hate them, all Seven, and I will
always hate them, but that night I welcomed the vision they gave me. They told me only your name, and
that you would come here, to my world. And one thing more. But that was enough. It was a promise, a
promise of an ending or a start, of a change. And any change is welcome on this world. I've been alone
here through a thousand suncycles, Sharra, and each cycle lasts for centuries. There are few events to
mark the death of time."
Sharra was frowning. She shook her long black hair, and in the dim light of the candles the soft red
highlights glowed. “Are they that far ahead of me, then?†she said. “Do they know what will
happen?†Her voice was troubled. She looked up at him. “This other thing they told you?"
He squeezed her hand, very gently. “They told me I would love you,†Laren said. His voice still
sounded sad. “But that was no great prophecy. I could have told them so much. There was a time
long ago—I think the sun was yellow then—when I realized that I would love
any
voice that was not an
echo of my own."
* * * *
Sharra woke at dawn, when shafts of bright purple light spilled into her room through a high arched
window that had not been there the night before. Clothing had been laid out for her; a loose yellow robe,
a jeweled dress of bright crimson, a suit of forest green. She chose the suit, dressed quickly. As she left,
she paused to look out the window.
She was in a tower, looking out over crumbling stone battlements and a dusty triangular courtyard. Two
other towers, twisted matchstick things with pointed conical spires, rose from the other corners of the
triangle. There was a strong wind that whipped the rows of grey pennants set along the walls, but no
other motion to be seen.
And, beyond the castle walls, no sign of the valley, none at all. The castle with its courtyard and its
crooked towers was set atop a mountain, and far and away in all directions taller mountains loomed,
presenting a panorama of black stone cliffs and jagged rocky walls and shining clean ice steeples that
gleamed with a violet sheen. The window was sealed and closed, but the wind
looked
cold.
Her door was open. Sharra moved quickly down a twisting stone staircase, out across the courtyard into
the main building, a low wooden structure built against the wall. She passed through countless rooms,
some cold and empty save for dust, others richly furnished, before she found Laren Dorr eating
breakfast.
There was an empty seat at his side; the table was heavily laden with food and drink. Sharra sat down,
and took a hot biscuit, smiling despite herself. Laren smiled back.
"I'm leaving today,†she said, in between bites. “I'm sorry, Laren. I must find the gate."
The air of hopeless melancholy had not left him. It never did. “So you said last night,†he replied,
sighing. “It seems I have waited a long time for nothing."
There was meat, several types of biscuits, fruit, cheese, milk. Sharra filled a plate, face a little downcast,
avoiding Laren's eyes. “I'm sorry,†she repeated.
"Stay a while,†he said. “Only a short time. You can afford it, I would think. Let me show you
what I can of my world. Let me sing to you.†His eyes, wide and dark and very tired, asked the
question.
She hesitated. “Well ... it takes time to find the gate. Stay with me for a while, then. But Laren,
eventually I must go. I have made promises. You understand?"
He smiled, gave a helpless shrug. “Yes. But look. I know where the gate is. I can show you, save you
a search. Stay with me, oh, a month. A month as you measure time. Then I'll take you to the gate.â€
He studied her. “You've been hunting a long, long time, Sharra. Perhaps you need a rest."
Slowly, thoughtfully, she ate a piece of fruit, watching him all the time. “Perhaps I do,†she said at
last, weighing things. “And there will be a guardian, of course. You could help me then. A month ...
that's not so long. I've been on other worlds far longer than a month.†She nodded, and a smile
spread slowly across her face. “Yes,†she said, still nodding. “That would be all right."
He touched her hand lightly. After breakfast, he showed her the world they had given him.
They stood side by side on a small balcony atop the highest of the three towers, Sharra in dark green and
Laren tall and soft in grey. They stood without moving, and Laren moved the world around them. He set
the castle flying over restless churning seas, where long black serpent-heads peered up out of the water
to watch them pass. He moved them to a vast echoing cavern under the earth, all aglow with a soft green
light, where dripping stalactites brushed down against the towers and herds of blind white goats moaned
outside the battlements. He clapped his hands and smiled, and steam-thick jungle rose around them; trees
that climbed each other in rubber ladders to the sky, giant flowers of a dozen different colors, fanged
monkeys that chittered from the walls. He clapped again, and the walls were swept clean, and suddenly
the courtyard dirt was sand and they were on an endless beach by the shore of a bleak grey ocean, and
above them the slow wheeling of a great blue bird with tissue-paper wings was the only movement to be
seen. He showed her this, and more, and more, and in the end as dusk seemed to threaten in one place
after another, he took the castle back to the ridge above the valley. And Sharra looked down on the
forest of black-barked trees where he had found her, and heard the mourning-birds whimper and weep
among transparent leaves.
"It is not a bad world,†she said, turning to him on the balcony.
"No,†Laren replied. His hands rested on the cold stone railing, his eyes on the valley below. “Not
entirely. I explored it once, on foot, with a sword and a walking stick. There was a joy there, a real
excitement. A new mystery behind every hill.†He chuckled. “But that, too, was long ago. Now I
know what lies behind every hill. Another empty horizon."
He looked at her, and gave his characteristic shrug. “There are worse hells, I suppose. But this is
mine."
"Come with me, then,†she said. “Find the gate with me, and leave. There are other worlds.
Maybe they are less strange and less beautiful, but you will not be alone."
He shrugged again. “You make it sound so easy,†he said in a careless voice. “I have found the
gate, Sharra. I have tried it a thousand times. The guardian does not stop me. I step through, briefly
glimpse some other world, and suddenly I'm back in the courtyard. No. I cannot leave."
She took his hand in hers. “How sad. To be alone so long. I think you must be very strong, Laren. I
would go mad in only a handful of years."
He laughed, and there was a bitterness in the way he did it. “Oh, Sharra. I have gone mad a thousand
times, also. They cure me, love. They always cure me.†Another shrug, and he put his arm around
her. The wind was cold and rising. “Come,†he said. “We must be inside before full dark."
They went up in the tower to her bedroom, and they sat together on her bed and Laren brought them
food; meat burned black on the outside and red within, hot bread, wine. They ate and they talked.
"Why are you here?†she asked him, in between mouthfuls, washing her words down with wine.
“How did you offend them? Who were you, before?"
"I hardly remember, except in dreams,†he told her. “And the dreams—it has been so long, I
can't even recall which ones are truth and which are visions born of my madness.†He sighed.
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