The Magician - William Kotzwinkle, ebook, CALIBRE SFF 1970s, Temp 2
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The Magician
William Kotzwinkle
The magician stood in the alley outside the cabaret, breathing the night
air. Under the light of the stage door sat his wife, sewing a silver button on
his evening jacket. A sturdy, buxom woman, she cut the thread with her
strong teeth, then stood and held the jacket out.
The magician turned and stepped toward her lightly, a magician's walk,
pointed toed across the stones, through the mist rolling in from the river,
as a ship edging out to sea sounded its mournful horn.
"The horns of Tibet," said the magician. "You hear them down the
mountain passes, invoking the Buddha."
"Yes, darling," said his wife, holding out his jacket, smiling patiently.
The night is hypnosis, he thought, not daring to look in her eyes, for he
would go tumbling into them. From within the cabaret came the sound of
a trumpet; in the stage doorway his wife's eyes were wickedly bright, and
he could not resist.
"Please, darling," she said, for he hadn't much time before his act, but
she let him fall, until she could feel him inside her, rummaging around in
her old loves, her flown and tattered past. What a strange one he was,
always exploring around inside her with those eyes of his, peering into the
dear dead days of a woman. It was bizarre play, but she let him, for some
men demanded much more, and it was more painful in the giving. That
was the way of the waterfront, where strange men came ashore. Into their
arms she'd fallen, for she loved a sea story, and their dark songs. But then
along he'd come, the top hatted magic one, and she had said so here you
are at last, which was all a magician needed, some portentous note to
thrill him for an age or two. So they'd married, and he was still looking
around inside her, and he has plenty more to see, she thought, before he
grows tired.
She broke the spell, waving his jacket at him. He fumed gracefully,
plunging his arms into the sleeves, noticing at the same moment a
 wandering couple coming out of the mist on the avenue an elderly man in
evening dress, singing to himself, on his amt a young woman in
high-collared cape, with her hair cut short, like a boy. As the lights of the
cabaret appeared to them, the young girl began to plead, "Oh, may we
stop here? They have a magic show!"
"Yes, yes," said the old fellow, continuing on, in deep tremolo, his song,
"
O du Liebe meiner Liebe . . .
"
The magician watched them move out of the lamplight and pass under
the awning of the cabaret.
"Yes," said the magician's wife, handing him his top hat, "she's very
beautiful."
"Now, my dear," said the magician with a laugh, "you know me better
than that" He tapped his hat and kissed her on the forehead. Women were
so quick to suspect a man it made one blush. "Come, old girl," he said,
giving her his arm, "I feel a good show brewing."
The dancing girls kicked their bare legs in the glow of the footlights,
scattering balloons over the smoky stage, then disappeared into the wings
amid applause and the rattle of dishes. Three drunken pit musicians
struck up a tinny fanfare; one of the dancing girls returned, holding a
gilt-edged sign bearing the magician's legend.
His wife kissed him on the cheek and he made his entrance, coming out
onto the stage from the wings. Removing his white gloves and top hat, he
signaled to the light bridge.
A spotlight swept through the audience, illuminating the tables, and at
the magician's direction stopped amid a setting of sparkling wine goblets
and dessert dishes, on the table of an elderly man in evening dress. His
companion, a young woman, tried to withdraw from the smoky beam. The
magician came to the edge of the stage.
"Please," he said, holding out his hand, "will you assist me?"
Seeing the girl's reluctance, the audience began to clap. Her escort
helped her from her seat. She walked toward the stage, smiling nervously.
In her short cropped hair and cape she looked like a beautiful schoolboy.
The hypnosis began slowly; the magician, asked her questions, relaxing
her with small talk, at the same time flashing in her face the brilliant
stone from his ring, playing its reflection over her eyes like a miniature
spotlight.
They stood in the middle of the stage, he smiling confidently, she
looking fearfully into his fierce, piercing foxeyes. She would not let herself
 be hypnotized, that was that, she would resist.
He stepped closer to her, touching her wrist lightly with his fingers. Her
face was purple in the spotlight, her dark eyes like windows, and he could
not resist slipping through them, into her hidden dimension.
The center of his forehead tingling, he passed through the delicate veil;
there was her youth and its tender longing, there her childhood and its
delight, here her infancy in white, and finally the darkness of the womb in
which she had slept He started to surface, then saw a light in the darkness,
and he plunged through this still more delicate veil, into her most secret
self. Down he went, through the gloomy ruins, where her antique past was
kept, and long-dead shadows chased.
Standing still as a stone on the stage, the young woman heard distant
voices, as if calling across the water. Something had happened, a magic
show, how odd she felt, as if in a dream.
Through the labyrinth he tracked, into the depths of her soul, where her
spirit was hidden away in its meditation. As in the rooms of a museum, he
passed the relics of her former lives a nun's veil, a gladiator's net, a
beggar's tin cup.
Suddenly a figure appeared, a priestess, highborn, by the sea, of
luminous and beautiful body, in the hallway of a temple hauntingly
familiar to him. In gold braided sandals and a necklace of shells she
walked by the sea and he who walked beside her . . .
The young woman and the magician stood motionless on the
smoke filled stage, she floating on the waves of the trance, he agasp with a
recollection.
"I loved you on Atlantis," he said with trembling voice.
Instantly the waves enveloped her, her mind swam, she was under.
There was a city with waving banners. She stood inside an ocean shell and
felt the water on her feet. How sweet it was upon the beach and he who
danced upon the waves
No, he thought, pulling back from her, but he could not stop his
descent, for they were ancient lovers.
A thousand lives have I loved you, she said, seeing clearly in the mirror
of her heart the chain of their love.
Struggling in the tidal wave, he turned to the audience. "Now, ladies
and gentlemen, tonight I would like to perform for you a most daring feat
of magic!" With trembling hands, he lifted the girl and placed her between
two chairs. She lay stretched out in the air, stiff as a board.
 She saw now, worlds were tucked within worlds, memory was vast. She
came down a river and there on its banks she saw him dancing in a loose
gown. She lay in the river on stones as omens reared in the sky a
procession of elephants in gold harness, and he, dancing, brown-skinned,
an African prince.
"Now then," said the magician, snapping his fingers, "bring on the
box." He held to the edge of a chair, trying to pull himself together.
Two of the dancing girls came out, carrying a large wooden box, which
they placed between a pair of sawhorses.
"The subject is in deep trance," said the magician, raising one of her
arms in the air, where it remained motionless, until he lowered it again.
He noticed her eyes fluttering, and through the brief slits he saw the
Orient, shining. So, he had beheaded the Boss of Tu Shin for her, and, he
saw this quite clearly, placed the head on a pole in the Boss's garden.
Covered in fans, she saw in a mirror pool, sparkling, the eastern world.
Oh yes, elegantly had she performed, serving the warrior. Then, changing,
she was gone. The snowcapped mountains melted and she was in the
lowland. Sitting in the door of a temple, legs folded, was a yogi, thin as
paper, eyes flashing in exaltation. Devastated by his gaze, she surrendered
and became him.
"As you will notice, ladies and gentlemen=" The magician lifted the lid,
his forehead pounding. So he had loved her there, too, in the incense of
Benares the sacred city, in the seventy nine positions. " the box is empty."
He worked the lid, with shaking hands. The stage was covered in
visions. In the center was a beating heart from which civilizations were
streaming. Upon the Mayan cliffs he saw a priest in gold robes lower his
knife into a virgin, naked on an altar of stone.
"Ladies and gentlemen, I hope you will notice-' He turned the box
upside down. " no false bottom, no escape hatch."
The temple of the sun crumbled, was covered by the jungle, faded into
the earth. The priest vanished, only to emerge again from the beating
heart, into the court of the virgin, now a Syrian Queen, and it was she who
bestowed upon him the high honor of her favored circle. With great
ceremony and the blowing of trumpets was he castrated.
"Now, ladies and gentlemen," he said, wiping the sweat from his brow,
"you will observe the teeth of this saw are sharp as a razor." He brushed
the air in front of his eyes, fighting through the cobwebs of memory: In
the last century, he had left a townhouse in top hat and evening cape,
 swinging a silver headed cane. Following the opera, drawn by the
moontide he retired to a brothel to escape the rain, and there in the parlor
she sat, laughing darkly, clad in beads. Let me take you away, he said, and
no, she said, removing her beads, it is impossible.
"Very well," said the magician, "a piece of magic rarely seen west of
Morocco." He picked her up, laid her in the box. Just so, long ago, in the
shadow of the Sphinx, had he tucked her away, into the pyramid.
Upward she rose, with brilliant birds, to their paradise, where she
reclined on a couch in the heaven of her lover. It is for the secret of your
illusions that I love you, she said, as they floated through triangles.
She heard the music of the conch horn, bells, and he, on a platform,
thousand eyed, revealed himself to her as he truly was, and he was, in fact,
invisible. No, she said, I must have you, and there, she saw to her relief, he
was the swan and she his lake. These, my true regions, he whispered, and
became the lotus floating, then the toad.
". . . this perilous operation, learned in Cairo. . ." He closed the lid, sat
on the box. Glancing backstage through the curtains and cables, he saw
his wife, smiling at him from the wings. Yes, he thought, I'm in a bit of a
mess. Sweating coldly, he looked down at the box, inside of which his
subject lay sleeping.
And who am I? she asked, dissolving into this life, that life, here, there,
palaces and so forth, and then, satisfied that she was eternal, she relaxed,
recognizing from the heights: She was no one.
He began to saw.
She heard the slow beating of a drum, saw the jungle, wild plumage.
Her body covered in gold fur, she beheld him seated across from her, in
the door of a mountain cave, licking his great paw, ferocious, her king,
winking at her.
"It is not often I perform this feat for fear of arrest," said the magician.
"However, since we are at the end of town…" The teeth ripped through the
box and sawdust flew in the air.
Back, back, she was gone, more was coming. They were clumsy dragons,
loving in lost swamps. His long neck, green skin, ponderable his tail, and
her strange egg: The night was pterodactyl, sharp beaked, she was afraid.
Somewhere, she thought, I was a girl.
"I will now ask the gentleman in the front row, that is right, you sir, to
come up and examine the depth of the incision I have made in this box."
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